For some reason I seem to think it is part of my mission in life to share small insights with you. Dear readers, I hope you will not think it too self indulgent of me to share the following…
Some days our psyches need to do some catching up, a bit like a computer that is processing information. Yesterday was one of those days for me. Yesterday my intuition said, more strongly than usual, ‘Time out.’
Doing something that seemed like nothing was (apparently) where I needed to be. And soon I found myself in front of a pile of large sticks at the top of the driveway. I would break big sticks into little sticks, for fire starters. Really? We no longer have a wood-burning stove… I do surprise myself sometimes. Not being inclined to ignore intuition, legs, arms, back and mind all went to work, snapping and cracking and stretching and whirring (the mind not the arms!)
Thoughts drifted into and out of my head…. Dad telling us to ‘police up the yard’ when we were kids. Translation: pick up the sticks laying everywhere. We always groaned. It was like punishment then, like therapy now. Also I remembered someone saying about chopping wood, ‘it warms you twice, once when you chop it and the second time when you burn it’. And I thought, my little sticks might even warm a third time if I gave them to someone with a wood-burner, all snapped into perfect lengths ready to use. Such a little gift might warm their heart.
Crunch…pop…rrrrip…crack… I cried thinking about how much Mom and Dad loved us when we were tiny and how lucky we were to have a safe home and parents who wanted the best for us. Snap…crack… more tears after watching a one minute video (Gretchen Ruben: The years are short) about enjoying the present with our children. Also it reminds me to be present for my own life, every minute of every day.
Crack…crunch…snap…Breaking sticks was moving meditation, bringing me into the present, giving me the space to feel, and to see the new growth in the garden, and in my life. Never underestimate the power of doing a something that seems like nothing.