This morning on my walk I looked up and noticed in the distance over Mt. Gillen, virga falling from the clouds. We long for it to reach the ground but too often it doesn’t. We wait for rain…nearly always. Since the clouds were especially pretty and the ranges were still in sunshine I scrambled up a rocky outcrop to get a better view. And perhaps a photo.
By the time I reached the best photographic viewpoint, the virga was nearly finished. In my head, there was a niggling little voice saying ‘wait’. It brought back the memory of a recent lesson learned while photographing the wildlife in the Southern Ocean. Our generous and skilled National Geographic photographer, Ken, stood over my shoulder as I was trying to capture a particular shot of penguins. He whispered ‘Wait…….wait……wait….NOW!’. For him it was a teaching moment, for me it was a crystal clear moment of insight. Since then, I try to remember that one thing when taking photos…wait. Sometimes it is waiting for the animals to do something special, sometimes it is waiting for them to appear at all. Other times I wait for the light, because that is really what makes photographs sing, the quality of light. It is only light that makes a photograph, after all.
As I looked at the ranges with camera poised, waiting, a small flock of Galahs wheeled by in the distance. I tapped and captured them flying in front of a tree with the ranges in the background.

I returned home, reminded of that valuable lesson months ago, and began a sort of out of my mind experience watching myself in various waiting modes. As I sat in the courtyard getting my daily dose of UV light to make vitamin D, I waited. I ruminated over the seeds I’d planted in the garden, wondering how long I would wait for this new batch to sprout. Had I waited too long to plant the new ones…perhaps…more waiting required.
Later, I peeled mandarins for breakfast, the intense citrus aroma returning me to days of Christmas passed, when as children we waited with great anticipation for that special time. I waited for the sourdough bread to become golden toast. Once covered with butter dripping through the holes and onto the plate I did not wait to eat it. Having licked the plate mostly clean, I rinsed it while looking up and out to the garden. There, two precious native lilies nodded in dappled sunlight. The blossoms were perfectly imperfect and there was no sense waiting any longer to capture that moment forever.

Later for morning tea I sliced a serving of what has become my most savoured treat. Almond croissant. Having refused previous offers made to purchase my favourite pastry, I deemed this morning the wait was over. During the winter Don had enlightened me about a piece he read stating that some expert or other had researched and reported tea is the perfect drink with pastry or cake…not coffee. Having tested this theory with a few willing sweet sacrifices, I concluded that for me at least, it seemed correct. But perhaps a bit more research was required. And so I added the perfect amount of organic tea leaves to a pot and waited while the kettle almost boiled so as not to make the tea bitter. I waited three minutes for the tea to steep and poured a cup to marry with my long awaited sweet.

We can hold multiple things at once in our minds. That is one of our human superpowers. We can be miserable and still grateful, sad and still laughing, and we can wait for things while still doing something…and that something is breathing. Waiting can bring the best of results, if in the waiting we understand it is part of the fabric of our life. It just is.
Gosh, this resonates with me today. Here in the US, we’ve got less than 48 hours until polling places close on election day, and the waiting is excruciating. In recent days, as the tension has increased and I’m sleeping less and having many nightmares, I’ve had to try hard to force myself to find things to be grateful for. You’re so right about the importance of breathing as we wait. I’ve felt paralyzed with fear lately, but taking deep breaths has gotten me through many days as I wait for what I hope will be a much-needed turn toward love and kindness and decency in my country.
Also, I had to look up the meaning of virga — thanks for teaching me a new word today. 🙂
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Waiting has been a hallmark of this year, but I wanted to express my experience of ALL the kinds of waiting we do. I find that observing the small things really helps when there is some kind of big waiting going on, and breathing is the most basic thing we do so it somehow brings some equanimity into the experience. I’m so sorry the US is in such turmoil. It must be excruciating. It is even hard to watch from a distance. I’m glad you looked up virga. I should have made a notation on the blog as to its meaning. I guess we see so much of it, the word has become commonplace to us. Sending you some good juju! xx
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A wonderful essay on waiting… enjoyable to read. When I saw a Ardysez blog post in my In-box I didn’t wait to read it. But I did wait to reply; savouring the thoughts it engendered. Patience has never been one of my strong points but over the years I have become more skilled at the nuances of waiting and not waiting. Learning from experience is one of the gifts of incrementing years. It can be applied practically… I went to order wine this morning but there are no great deals so as the cupboard is not bare I can afford to wait, the price will either be the same or better deals will come along. And as you illustrate: intuitively, that wait or move now gut feeling; and the connected sensory pleasures of anticipation and partaking… Ironically in my progressing years I find less pleasure from immediate and constant fulfilment of wants but rather more appreciation from lifting embargoes and stretching time via delayed gratification. Anything is possible… in my own good time.
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Historically, patience has not been my forte either. I still struggle with it on a daily basis, but gradually I’m moving toward the middle ground and being able to live in the state of uncertainty. Almost like magic I find myself wanting less, too, so that helps! I’m glad you enjoyed reading my thoughts, it really happened just like I wrote it, almost writing itself, in fact. Namaste, my friend.
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There is waiting and waiting methinks. I came on this morning with a huge amount of paidwork to be done on the computer. I still have not begun so as to be there for all the many friends ‘waiting’ in the States . . . they all want to and need to talk even if just about the emergency food and medical supplies all are piling into their homes. I am a European-born Australian . . . the only waiting I seem to be doing at the moment is to see how the tragic and crazy situation in the States resolves . . . all other kinds will have to wait their turn . . . so I more than understand Kim Smith and truly wish her and hers well ,
Oh, if there is to be a somewhat ridiculous comparison . . . I am kind’of waiting for three now rather ugly teenage falcons on a rooftop in Melbourne to get themselves ready for flight . . . 🙂 !.
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I’ve experienced nearly every kind of waiting, I think, even the very sad and serious kinds. All of it seems to be eased with living in the moment, especially the kind that is out of my control. Turning my attention back to tiny things happening in front of me…including three gangly falcon chicks helps a lot. It is so impressive to watch those parents taking care of those three rowdy siblings! Nearly ever day there is a funny event happening. Thanks for reading, Eha.
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Oh, Ardys, how your words reminded me of so many little things this morning! Making time to sit with my coffee and spend a little time with Oscar and Lollipop, giving them love and scrubs (massages) is so important. Taking time to enjoy the deer chores, and getting the chickens set up for the day is relaxing if I think of it that way. Like Kim, it has been a difficult time for me, as for most people here in the States, and I do not think the election will end any of it. We see a shift in the masses throughout history, so we wait to see how things change (or not). How we react to and what we create in the aftermath will be important.
I often observe wildlife of all kinds, being alert, waiting, and standing in stillness for long periods of time. Regardless of the decision to stay or take flight, instinct rules. Unfortunately, I do not see many humans practicing this. Driven by fear or walking around blindly, we set ourselves up for failure.
Now I must get out to do chores! I waited until the temperatures rose a bit, and will now enjoy the warm sun on my back as I tend to my herd and flock! Ha ha! Thank you, Ardys, for setting the pace this morning as a day to enjoy what comes my way, and to wait for the gifts presented! 🙂
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I’m so glad this post helped you get a good start to the day. Slowing down a little to observe what is happening around us is never a waste of time, in my opinion. I really don’t get off to a good start when I’m rushed those first couple of hours in the morning. Best to you. x
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