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(This is the post I wrote last Friday before the ice storm. We had been home two days when the storm came and so I thought this post could wait for more current events!)
Many of you were not following when I started my blog nearly five years ago.(a very early post you might enjoy here) I started it while having radiation treatment in Darwin, 1000 miles from home. It was a soul searching, solitary, and challenging, but also very rewarding 7 weeks.
I have just returned from my five year consultation with the surgeon, and the tests that confirmed, all is well. The surgeon told me in October, five years from when I started the aromatase inhibitor medication I will be able to discontinue it. Further, she told me that the mammogram imaging has improved so much that I will be able to discontinue the difficult breast MRI test, unless the high resolution mammogram shows something unusual. (Mammogram remains an extraordinarily painful compression of one’s sensitive body parts, however!) Five years is a significant benchmark and I was greatly relieved, feeling very very fortunate.
The lady in the corner quietly crying into her tissues reminded me how far I had come.
For many years walking and enjoying nature has been a calming habit for me. It keeps me centred and feeling normal, even when things are abnormal. The recent week we spent in Adelaide began with a breast MRI the first day, and ended on the last day with the mammogram and surgeon consultation. In between were five days. I hesitate to say it was an uncertain time, because nothing in life is certain. But no doubt our awareness of uncertainty is sometimes heightened. One morning I told my husband I need to go find some light to photograph. The Adelaide Botanic Garden is not far from our hotel and I thought that would be the place. He wanted to join me, which was fine. He understands my frequent stops and contortionist positions to capture images I’m chasing. Here was my therapy for that day.
For all of society’s increasing interest in taking photos, there are still life moments that escape being photographed. The moment of certainty (however temporary) in the surgeon’s room, was not a Kodak moment. But this set of photos above, taken during that week, will be in my mind for a very long time.
This final photo is no prize winner, but it was a shared meal with our daughter and my husband, a good bottle of wine at our favourite Chinese restaurant with my husband’s grateful words;
‘Here’s to good boob health!’ Always a good toast!
Am so glad for you, Ardys!! I am ‘ahead’ of you by nine years with the same and do know all the feelings engendered . . . I decided to tread a different road in spite of two big beasties trying to undo me . . . refused both radio- and chemo- after the op and went Chinese herbal . . . if the results were ‘placebo’ the latter worked 🙂 !! When every doctor here said they would not! Glad all well for you . . . keep on keeping so . . .
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Thank you Eha. You are brave to have gone ‘the road less travelled’. So glad you were successful too. It is quite a learning experience, no matter which way you go.
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As a doctor and a nutritionist myself it was kind’of imperative for me – they called out a senior oncologist from Sydney who sat with me for an hour during a major MRSA episode after the op to boot – he grinned and said ‘ You know I cannot advise you to do that’. My answer was – ‘If your Mom wanted to do this, would you, with all the love in your heart, keep on her to change her mind . . .? The answer was ‘never . . ;’ and I always felt ‘safe’ whatever that means, afterwards. Methinks some other botheration will bring an end to a beloved life, but I know what I do not want . . . love’ya and all the best!!!!!
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Wow, you had MRSA too? Good grief. Yes, as a nutritionist and a doctor you would have had the tools to make good choices for yourself. We are in the process of doing the paper work for ‘Advance Care Directive’ so that we do not end up on life support lingering etc… Some ‘botheration’ or other will finish us all, but being a bit proactive is a good thing! xx
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A five year benchmark and many goals, big and small,along the way. Good news Ardys. Now you can chase that light without so many dark clouds in the back of your mind. I suspect you have learnt a great deal along the way, and this shines through in all your posts.
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Thank you Francesca. Yes, I have learned so much, some of which I have distilled into blog posts. I like your description of chasing the light without so many dark clouds in my mind…although I do enjoy photographing dramatic clouds from time to time 🙂
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Five is is a milestone and worth celebrating shaking off the beastie. It now thirteen years since I had major surgery for bowel cancer and refused radiotherapy. I meditated and followed an organic diet free of stimulants. Confronting mortality up close gives a whole new appreciation to life, to beauty, to light. Life is a gift, thanks for sharing what’s valuable to you
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Good for you, Sandra. Yes, confronting one’s mortality is a very focusing experience. I discovered how much I am loved and how much I love my life, as well as other things, so well worth the experience. So interesting to see how everyone handles the challenge.
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Sandra, I still try to meditate as often as time allows [should be every day!] . . . I have a very bad back also and about 30-45 minutes’ meditation wipes the pain for hours . . . besides giving one such a delightful drug-free ‘high’!
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Me too Eha, it induces an amazing sense of peace and wellbeing.
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to good boob health indeed! So happy about your good news!
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Thank you Mimi!
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I am happy for your good news, Ardys! Like you experienced, I believe nature is such a healing force. Mine is more on the mental side of healing, but it matters not the disease or ailment – nature is powerful. I am also happy to read so many comments about diet changes and healing. I just had a health workup and my numbers were impressive… confirmation that our Paleo lifestyle is doing good things!
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That is good news! It is always of interest to me what (if anything) individuals do to assist their own healing and wellbeing. It’s such a shame that many of us have lost touch with what is really important and what we need. Thank you for reading and your good wishes, Lori. I’m sure your deer babies are keeping you busy!
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Yes, they keep me extremely busy. And the weather has become very hot and humid. It’s difficult to work in the gardens and keep up with the mowing. And, we lost our smallest chin, Zoe on Wednesday. I’m having a hard time of it. She was my little ranch dog, always at my side. I feel a little disconnected. 😦
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Oh Lori, I’m so sorry to hear that. When our dog Storm died I felt quite disconnected for a while. He was at my side when our daughter was at school and my husband was traveling for work and I still miss him. The bond we have with our animal family is a very special one. Big hugs to you.
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Good news and beautiful photographs, so pleased for you xxx
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Thank you Joanna. The new reality is slow to sink in. xx
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Here’s to good boob health! Cheers! What a beautiful milestone Ardys – five years blogging and a five year journey to health. And those photos! I didn’t know what the dead lily pad leaves were until I read the caption, I was just struck by their beauty and form.
I have been blogging for four years, so WordPress told me this month, and it has really been a journey through my self, both my writing self and me. Congratulations, and I am so glad that I have been here for some of it xo
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Thank you Sara. I have SO enjoyed blogging over these five years. But even more, I’ve enjoyed reading other people’s blogs and making new friends. I am so used to living far away from family and friends that having blog friends that I never see doesn’t seem very odd at all! I’m really glad we are sharing our journey together. xo
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Yes, making friends is one of my favourite things as well!
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Enjoyed your post…and yes, your husband said it perfectly. Your little therapy expeditions to photograph and capture sound like my therapy. It helps me stop and enjoy the moment…and looking at the photos later on allows me to go back into the moment. So glad you are doing well. Enjoy your blog as always, although I have not had a chance to visit blogs for the past couple of months! But hoping that with summer, that little enjoyable habit could once again return. All the best to you ❤
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Yes, you are exactly right, the photos help me stop and enjoy the moment and later allow me to remember it. Thank you for your good wishes. You are doing well to read or write a blog at all with seven children and a new business. ‘Love what you do and you will never work a day in your life’… someone said that once but it’s so true. Enjoy your summer.
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I’m not sure how these things happen… for a reason or synchroncity… but I’m pleased they do, that they have brought us together, and my spirit lifts to read all is well with you. When I see light, landscape and nature’s gifts I see them the way you have showed me via your photography and appreciate them all the better.
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How sweet of you Dale. I very much appreciate your comments on my photos and am so pleased they inspire you. xx
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